SAD TODAY

There are so many days I wish I actually was the heartless bitch I sometimes appear to be.  

There are so many days I wish I didn't care so much for all of the wonderful people I've met on this loveliest of things, the internet.

There are so many days I wish I could turn off tears for the loss these wonderful people feel when they lose someone, person or pet.

Today is one of those days.

For the past few days there are many who have waited and prayed for a beautiful Golden Retriever, not quite 2, who got into something she shouldn't have. We waited and prayed to see if she'd be fine on her own; we waited and prayed to see if she'd come through her surgery; we waited and prayed to see if she'd beat the resulting infection; we waited and prayed even harder to find out what the second surgery would find.

And then we cried. Buckets of tears, just like the ones that are falling down my cheeks right now because that beautiful little Haven just couldn't conquer what she had gone through.

I remember when Martha and Rick got her. It's always such fun when one of us gets a new puppy. Seriously, is there anything better?  She joined a family full of the love of her people parents as well as some other furbabies who I'm sure found her annoying at first but who I'm sure ultimately grew to love her, too.

Seriously, just look at that face with that smile that Goldens are so well known for.

Haven was well loved throughout her too short time here.

We "meet" these people just through a computer screen a majority of the time. We take the time and make the effort to "know" them as well as we can through that screen. We spend hours reading about their lives, commenting, laughing, giving advice, and yes, learning to love them as if they were actually sitting in our living rooms.

And because of that, when they have hard times...or pain...or grief of any kind, we feel it. We feel it so hard.  Maybe that seems ridiculous to some.  To those that don't/won't/can't get it, I say, "It's your loss".  Because I wouldn't trade these people for anything even though it means I feel the pain as well as the joys.

There are a lot of hearts hurting today in sync with Martha and Rick, and there are a lot of friends, actual and virtual, who wish they could take away their pain.  Simply put, we love them, and we'll keep right on praying, this time to ease their sorrow.

And yes, you do get to see a mani because I happened to have one from a couple of weeks ago.

I happen to love this. I know you're shocked to see me say that because I seldom do.  For the deep burgundy, I used Ruby Kisses Dark & Delicious. I crumpled up some saran wrap and dabbed on Zoya Brigitte. I had also planned on stamping with Brigitte, but it wasn't showing up very well, so I stamped with Zoya Rue instead.  The stamp pattern came off of my Cheeky H plate.

It turned out exactly like I wanted it to, and I love the marbley kind of effect I got with the saran wrap.

That'll do it for me today.  My heart just isn't in nails or manicures today.

My mind and my heart have business elsewhere.